Song for Sunday: scattered

I've had a very scattered weekend. I had way too many things on my plate, but I just couldn't seem to stop myself from taking more & more helpings when people offered them to me. I only wish the repercussions to this (figurative) heaping platter were as simple as a tummy-ache or a few extra pounds. In truth, I did manage to take care of everything, but I do not feel that I did any of them well. Instead, I felt that I just kicked into survival mode and did what had to be done. I do not like functioning this way.

I've been reflecting on why I let myself feel (or get) so overwhelmed. I've been busier, had more responsibilities, more stress, less time- I can't just blame my circumstances. But for whatever reason, I've just been unfocused. It's not that I didn't care about the things that I had to take care of this week (parties for my daughter's birthday, getting ready for my parents to visit, Children's worship, a bridal shower, and so on); it's more like I just didn't realize how far behind I was until it was too late to catch up well. Or even more likely: I just didn't grasp the time constraints I was facing- I thought I could do it all. I did, but just barely- not (repeat after me) well- and only by the grace of God. If you were someone who was there to see me doing less than my best, I am sorry.

I'm trying to manage my time a little more wisely, to clear the fog & get motivated, and to remember Who is really the Boss of me, my efforts and my time...

In the Middle of Me
by Todd Agnew

I need a little more sunshine in the middle of rain
Need a little more joy in the middle of pain
Need a little more color in the middle of this plain jane

I’ve looked as deep as I can see
And I think I need a little more You in the middle of me

I need a little more patience in the middle of stress
I need a little more beauty in the middle of this mess
Need a little more substance in the middle of this emptiness

I’ve looked as deep as I can see
And I think I need a little more You in the middle of me

Need more of You and less of me
More of You and little less insanity
More of You and little less complexity

I’ve looked as deep as I can see
It seems more of You is better for me

I need a little more rhythm in the middle of this lazy rhyme
Need a little more spontaneity in the middle of this daily grind
Need a little more truth not music in this world of lies

I’ve looked as deep as I can see
And I think I need a little more You in the middle of me

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